Readers know
that one of the few blogs I regularly check is the contrarian one of another
Scot who worked in Uzbekistan (as British Ambassador) just after I had left my
3 –year assignment there in 2001 - the
blog of Craig
Murray. He
has been a thorn in the flesh of not only the British, Uzbek and American
Governments - for his early revelations of Uzbek torture condoned by the Brits
and continued by the Yanks. These cost him his position but he was subsequently vindicated (by no less a body than the US Senate Intelligence Committee - a misnomer if ever there was one!!!).
But his
beloved Scottish Nationalist party then lacked the guts (and intelligence) to
accept him as an official candidate for the 2015 General election – despite his
sterling (!) work for them………
I am confused as to what I might usefully do with
my life. I suppose the question I have been pondering is, what good am I?
Anyone who
reaches his/her late 50s and has had the sort of rich work experience enjoyed
by many born in the immediate post-war period; good health; and reasonable and
accessible capital should have been asking Craig’s question for the past
decade…..
- why
I was pessimistic about the future and so unhappy with what the French
then called “La Pensee Unique”, the post
1989 “Washington consensus”
- who
were the organisations and people I felt were fighting for a better world
- what
they were achieving - and what not
- how
these gaps could be reduced
- how
with my resources I could help that process
Craig asks the blunt question of What good he is - which is a slightly disparaging way of putting things. A more useful question is “What am
I good FOR?” In
other words, to what purpose should
someone of my age, experience and resources (time, networks, money etc) turn
this latter stage of his life?
We all admire
older people who have resisted the temptation to rest on their laurels and have
turned their experience and energies to serve a larger purpose – eg Stephane Hessel,
- Initially I
thought I might leave some money to a Trust Fund to honour my father’s memory
as a West of Scotland public man; or to celebrate the sort of community
enterprise I’ve been associated with. But my family has no claim to fame – and
such ventures tend to peter out after the initial years of enthusiasm.
- So, in
2009, I started this blog and also a website with some of my
papers with no less a purpose than leaving
behind a record of how one 20th century man thought of the world he
had been lucky enough to experience……
- Then, with a
newfound passion for Bulgarian painting (and one foot now in Romania and another
in Bulgaria), I briefly entertained the notion of organising a summer painting
retreat to help break down the barrier of indifference which seems to exist
between these two nations.
- At one stage I
became so desperate about the rise of corporate greed that I actually
contemplated launching the idea of a geriatric kamikaze mission to target the
financial class - on the Mintzberg argument that the vanishing "people power" of trade unions and voters needed some strengthening to ensure the "rebalancing of society". But I quickly realised that this would merely further strengthen the repressive power of the "security state" which has replaced our mixed economies and liberal democracies....
- Last year I
launched a second, specially designed, website with a larger capacity – Mapping the Common Ground - as a resource for those
who share my concerns and want to do some sharing…...On to it I uploaded not
only my own books and essays but more than a hundred books which I thought
would be helpful to others struggling with my questions…… But, after six years of the blog and one year of the website, I have to confess there’s not been much response.
Craig’s question
is a good one since it forces us to do a
SWOT analysis – and to try to craft a strategy for this phase of our life
on its results. I know that when I first did the Belbin
test about team roles about 15 years ago, I had expected to come out as a
“leader”. But I was not altogether surprised to discover that I was more of a
“resource person”. There’s not much point setting out to build an orphanage if
you don’t like children!
I’ve been
lucky enough to have been “my own man” for most of my life – an academic of a
sort for 17 years but able to devote more time to a role as an (influential)
elected official; maintaining a senior position for 22 years through a
dozen elections by colleagues; since
1990 a maverick consultant who has challenged the conventional wisdom.
What good am I? Bluntly expressed - just
reading, writing and looking/exploring!
What do I offer the world?
- The
results of broad and deep reading over 50 years about social science
matters
- The
practice of thinking out aloud since 1970 - in short papers about the work in
which I was involved (see “lessons learned” on the new website for those from
the past 20 years; “E-books” for almost a dozen of that genre)
- More
than 1000 mini-essays with almost 10,000 hyperlinks – on the blog Balkan and Carpathian Musings
- the
results of pretty intensive net-surfing for relevant writing over the past
decade -available in Mapping
the Common Ground’s library
Of course that still doesn’t answer the question
which has been nagging me for the past 15 years – of where I should be putting
my experience and resources…….!!